First let me thank you for taking the time to read this.
I am not going to sugar coat anything which will probably scare off half the readers, but I refuse to be misleading in anyway.
Somehow the rug was pulled from under my feet. I lost my job and became homeless for the first time. I was introduced to a sadness I thought never existed. Sleeping under a bush was so terrifying that I started to do drugs to deal with it. At that point I resigned myself to giving up. My pain was so great that I cried everyday to the point where my tears would dry up and I would continue to cry like a dry-heave. I fantasized about suicide everyday.
Last year I was diagnoseed with renal kidney cancer. While I was homeless I thought that all of my despair will probably manifest into cancer so when I got the news I wasn't surprised at all.
My Mother whom is 80 and suffering from Alzheimer's disease asked me to try and better my life before she passes on. From that point on I have been trying to reverse whatever happened to me. I managed to get enough clarity to get a dog/friend. Her name is Zowie and in some ways I believe she saved my life. She gave me someone to connect to. she gave me someone to love and hold. She has healed me in sooooo many ways especially the depression.
Today I have given up the idea of (giving up) and now I want to live !!!
All my life I have been told that I am a very smart guy and I am starting to finally believe that. I want to go on to do great things. I would love to eliminate some of the unnecessary suffering in this world among many other things.
All my life I have been quite poor and I am totally fine with that.
I had horrible luck with my teeth when I was younger and as a result I am virtually toothless. It is so bad that I can barely eat. Eating which is a huge pleasure for humans has been totally taken away from me. I have to either blend my food or buy protein smoothies (which are really expensive) Arrrrrg!
Ok, here is my request .... Is there anyone out there that would help me pay for my teeth. I found an inexpensive dentist that will do my dentures for 2000
By the way I am totally sober now incase you were wondering. That was a very painful part of my life that I pray will never return. If it does I'm certain I will die.
Please if any of what I wrote resonates with you please get back to me. I can pay you back slowly with cash or I can pay you back in other ways via friendship
By the way I am an excellent nutritional cook. studied massage. attended two years of college so I can carry a conversation. I have been isolating for so long that I really need an honest friend. Perhaps that could be you?
